Gundam~~

Gundam had been one of my favourite anime of all time :-D
I had watch through a series of Gundam ranging from
the original Gundam to Gundam 00
What I like Gundam the most is their use of mecha and their story plot
Which revolve around war cause by human themselves out of jealousy
Every series of Gundam is set in a different century or universe
Their use of technology is what really make this anime so interesting
Fossil fuels, nuclear energy and solar energy,
just to name a few are the few resources use as the power supply of Gundam
Their unique fighting style using beam rifle and beam saber are unique in itself

One of favourite Gundam is Gundam 00 which is published in the year 2007
Their use of the GN drive or solar energy make this Gundam series quite a sight
Below is my favourite Gundam of all time, the Gundam 00 Quanta

It has a special ability call the Quantum Burst system
Which emit a large amount of GN particle
which serve as some kind of power like telepathy
Which help human to understand each other
Because we can read others mind :-D
Wouldn't it be nice if I have this power?

And here goes my 2nd favourite Gundam
The 00 Raiser

My 2nd favourite Gundam anime will be Gundam Seed/Seed Destiny

Well, this Gundam universe utilize fossil fuel and nuclear energy as the Gundam main power supply

And it's one of the Gundam the I'm most interested in

Because of it's amazing storyline and unique Gundam design

And here goes my 3rd favourite Gundam, Strike Freedom

It's 8 wing like backpack and it's multi firing ability is superb,

plus its pilot, Kira Yamato who possess the Seed ability

Whoohoohoohoo~~~

Move on to the 3rd of my most favourite Gundam will be Gundam Wing

What really catches my eyes is Gundam Wing Zero/Endless Waltz with its Angelic Wing

Gundam Wing Zero will be my 4th favourite Gundam

It's special weapon the Buster Rifle is also super amazing >.<

Well, there are so many Gundam anime,

such as Gundam ZZ, God Gundam, Gundam V, Gundam 0079,0080 and 0081, Gundam Unicorn

And this anime can at it's best

Teach people of the dangerous

And the risk we human carry if we still continue to differentiate one from another

Ranging from skin colour to races

If we human continue to create a barrier to separate ourselves and render ourselves different from each other, then prepare for another war,

make a change now :-D

Oh yeah, and my 5th favourite Gundam,

not so powerful how I look at it,

but it's the 1st ever Gundam ever created,

The RX-78 Gundam

So friend, why not start to watch Gundam today?

This world is not what I want

O why should thee care

of the fragility of a grace

of the fragility of an ego

should thee not care

the repercussion that bestowed within

because thy ego knows no boundaries

and thy grace knows no beauty

a world of no grate
for the one live here on land

for one knows nothing

neither the past nor tomorrow

what a foolish act

of a foolish man 

which brings thy self pain

thee of the spring

for what thee continue to  go

why let go of thee dreams

to pursue something of no meaning

had thee thought enough

of the repercussion

that thee will bring

be not fool by this world

O young man of the spring

open thy vision

and see through this world

which hopes for nothing

other than a common straight line

which leads to nothing

be awake now

thee should awake now

pursue thy dreams

let it not hide

for things comes with a price

for hard work is what thee need

to lead this world of thy

do not be fool young man

for thee had seen the truth

for thee had know the fake

there's nothing more

nothing more

for thee to grab firm on

let it go young man, let go

stop trying to be kind

neither try to be evil

balance thy self within

for this world thee hold on no more

but the other world thee should cherish

it's all about eternity

and thy price in it

start working for it now

The Kingdom of thy Father

for it's everything thee should work on

but thee shall not go alone

bring thy friend

bring them together

bring thy friend to Father

do not worry

nothing will stop thee anymore

let things be

for it's a test

that thee must endure

so that thee are fully equip

with the will of thy Father

seek thy answer

delight in the truth

hate those of evil

be patient, and be kind

thee shall not be angered

thee shall not envy

thee shall not dishonor others

thee shall always protect

thee shall always trust

thee shall always perseveres

thee shall not boast

thee shall not be proud

thee shall not be self-seeking

thee shall not keep record of wrongs

and thee shall wake up

when every little hope seems lost

when expectation turn to dust

because there's no reason why

thee shall expect more

expect only

from the Father Himself

* There's too many things happened recently

And little hopes often turn to dust

I do not know

But it seems so

It's never your choice to be

I never know what to do

Sigh~~ I hope things just can be a little to my side

I really don't know what's happening

I don't know what to believe in

And that's why I wrote this

In the hope it can represent all little hope and expectation

that had lost themselves *

*By the way... Copyright is protected*

* And I'll stop blogging for a while

Until I get my doubt solve, my question answered..*

* Pray for me *

"Face It"

After hearing the talk "Face It"
I can't seem to bring what I learn to use...
Facing and think about the things you're trying to avoid,
break yourself free from your problem by praying...
the more I think...
The more I get myself down into depression...
Just how many things I've been trying to avoid anyway?
And do things just need to happen?
But why?
I have to face such problem...

I don't know...
How can I face all of them...
Almighty Father...
guide me and strengthen me...
be with me...
I need You now...
I need Your love...
I am totally...
under depression...
please...
be with me...

Something tells me that,
it's time to make my stand,
it's time to say "ENOUGH!!"
tonight 1am, I'll make sure everything count!!!

Managing my stress

What stress can I get?
Well...
I don't deny I don't have any stress al rite...
stress only I know why @@ ~~
Mood was very very down today thou...
I can't concentrate in everything...
I can't even take my afternoon nap...
Can't make myself sleep...
Reason?

Just keep it for myself ba haha :-P
Gosh...
Don't know what got into me...
but I manage to get myself out of it...
It's just a simple trick...
share your problem...
but how?
easy... I just close my eyes...
and I sat there for 45mins...
praying...
just share every bit of my problem to God~~
and he will help me to solve :-)
It really work...
I feel much much calmer and better after I pray...
and somehow feel very foolish of some of my own action...
I laugh at myself :-D
Should have live my life happily...
instead to be stop my own problem...
There's no reason to stop and think too much...
Things will happen anyway...
so let's just let things pass...
and live every second with happiness!!! Oh yeah!!!

Oyea... don't forget I went and make myself sweat by playing badminton!!!

Nah....

Seeking happiness?

Had I been able to do it all the time?

Positivity have their own limit too...

Maybe...

Nothing....

Maybe I was thinking too much...

Not suited in the first place anyway haha....

My life had to go on...

Now it's too.....

Endurance?

Keep enduring bah....

Until the end...

The very end....

The very very end....

Even if....

it h.....

Nah...

Sleep ba.....

Sleep will do the rest...

Goodnite....

My little soul...

Is in Your hand...

You know me the best...

I love You...

Love, giving up doesn't mean the end of it

Often in live, out of nothingness, L.O.V.E provide us with a fairy tale,
So sweet and so happy, we wishes that it would last forever,
Like that in a fairy tale, The Happy Ever after ending~~

At some point of our life, you met her
She is the best, the only person you had ever wanted,
Slowly you realize,
your mind are fill only with him/her,
you can never forget her,
you fall in love,
what's more?
when she/he loves you too?
Your very own fairy tale start,
A world so happy and wonderful,
You had every confidence that it'll last forever,
you had really fallen for her,
you're both so in love with each other, you share everything, every secret,
of tears and of joy~~

Then, the unexpected happen,
Everything is not what it seems to be.
She's/He's no longer sweet, and thoughtful and caring.
Out of a sudden, she/he is a stranger that you are so familiar with,
You keep on wandering,
What had you done wrong to deserve this~~
You keep on thinking about the reason~~
Why things just doesn't work the same between you anymore?
You are asking yourself "does she still love me? "
Finally,
you decided to ask her/him,
but only in return been ignore,
she/he avoided your question and never give you a brief answer,
You are frustrated,
her/his actions are loud and clear,
although nothing seems to come out of her/his mouth,
until you push her too much she exploded like a bomb,
and the fairy tale end,
and is heard no more~~

You try to deny it, somehow maybe,
you're wrong.
Maybe she/he still love you,
you do not want to give up,
you're hoping for a change,
but you know it well yourself,
you cry yourself to sleep every day,
trying to think of a way to save your relationship,
but the truth is there,
you still wake up after sleep,
you will face the truth,
it's ended.

Friends, what i want to tell you is that,
It's the start of your healing process,
the most painful part of all,
you know you had to do it,
but you just can't!!!
You love him/her, you need him/her,
you don't want to give up,
you decided to suffer,
you choose to believe in miracle,
although you know her/his heart is no longer there for you,
you blame yourself for everything, you fell pain,
you suffer greatly,
everything in this world seems hopeless,
every songs you hear brings you tears,
but it's not your fault.
We can;t control anything that may come our way.
they need to happen because God allows them to happen.

If we really and truly love someone,
their happiness should mean more to us than our own. it's call selfless love.
Ask yourself, how much to you love her/him?
Do not love her to a stat where you're willing to allow her/him to go to where she's/he's happy?
Even if that happiness is not with you?
Do you love her enough to allow her/him to be happy without feeling bitter or revengeful?
Can you let her/him go?
Allow her to enjoy her /himfreedom?

Letting go doesn't mean we give up,
it just means we need to give in,
Give in to the truth,
And learn to accept the truth that we we may have lost love,
bur that doesn't mean we can never find it again,
so cheers up,
this world is still so wonderful,
you're responsible for your own happiness,
move on, pray
and believe that, god will guide you along the way

Ganbate, i won't tolerate anymore of your tears,
specially presented to you my friends,
I hope you like my opinion,
although I can do nothing more

Hope and Expectation

Hope and Expectation

 God Love me, because He had given me the courage to speak,

How much do I know when it comes to dream, hope and expectation??

I believe,

Everyone has dream,

There’s hope in every dream,

When you have hope, you’ll be starting to expect it to happen,

Most of the time,

Dream will just remain a dream,

No matter how much we look at it,

It will just remain a dream,

A tiny hope that is planted somewhere in your heart

A little expectation that we at one time have a very high hope of,

However,

We can’t stop to dream and hope and expect,

Just because one thing doesn’t go our way

Every fail expectation, every fallen hope, every unachievable dream have their own reason,

Our Almighty Father know what is the best for us,

Many times,

Things just won’t go our way,

People just doesn’t meet our expectation

It let us feel very low in term of spirit,

It’s like you can feel that God is starting to leave you,

You’ll fall, losing your hope in God,

I once experience this,

Although I went to church every time,

But my faith is very far away,

What I do not realize is that,

God had already planted the seed of love in me,

His unfailing love is within me all the time,

He never gives up on me,

He wants me to love Him again,

He show His miracle to me,

He once again show me the way to be,

The way to trust in Him once again,

He put His hope in me,

He has expectation in me,

He provide me with a dream so beautiful that I can’t stop happy-ing everyday

I know,

When we handed everything to God,

When we fully put in our faith into Him,

When we sincerely pray and believe,

He will realize our dream,

Bring our hope to a new level,

And let our expectation come to a pass,

He will never fail us when we come to trust in His unfailing love,

Do not ever give up on your dream, hope and expectation,

Because God had everything ready for us,

It’s just that it is not the right time to be,

We must patiently wait and trust Him,

No matter how long will it take,

God, will let us see,

Our dream, hope and expectation come true one by one,

Pray in His unfailing love,

And fully entrusted our Hope with Him

Ah yes, English is easier, 15mins to translate all haha

May His Glory shine upon us

期待与盼望

My Chinese sucks so just bear with me until I come out with English translated version later...

I'm not very good when it come to spontaneous talking but somehow... hahahaha


期待与盼望，
神真的很爱我，
让我有了站起来说话的力量~~
对于期待与盼望我究竟了解多少？？


我相信，
每个人都有梦想，
梦想里存有希望，
当你有了希望，
你会开始期待它发生， 
很多时候， 
梦将只是一个梦想， 
无论我们如何看待它
它只会是个梦想， 
种在我们心里的某个角落，
一个小小的希望， 
我们所期待的， 
一个小小的期望 

然而， 
我们不能只因为一小小的错则，
让梦想，希望和期待就这样停下来， 
每一个失败的期望，
每一个倒下的希望，
每一个达不到的梦想
有它自己的理由， 
我们全能的父知道什么是对我们最好的，
很多时候， 
事情就不是我们所要的， 
人就是不会去符合我们的期望，我们会感到失望，这时，
慢慢的，
你感觉到神开始离开了你， 
你就跌倒，
失去了你对神信任。。。

我曾经经历过， 
虽然我每次都有去教堂， 
但我的信心在很远之处， 
我没有发觉的是， 
神已经在我里面种下了他的爱，
他无尽的爱一直都与我同在， 
他从来没有放弃我，
他要我爱他， 
他向我展示他的奇迹， 
他再次把我带回他身边， 
让我再次能信任他， 
在我里面有神对我的希望，
神对我的期望，
他给了我一个美丽的梦想，
让我无时无刻都感觉到很开心。。

我知道，
当我们把一切都交给上帝， 
当我们完全的把我们的信仰投入在他里面， 
当我们真诚地祈祷并相信， 
他将实现我们的梦想， 
把我们的希望带到到一个新的境界，
他得慈爱永远不会让我们感到失望， 

不要放弃你的梦想,希望和期待， 
因为神已经为我们准备好一切， 
只是，
这还不是正确的时间而已，
我们必须耐心地等待和信任他， 
不管需要多长的时间， 
神，将让我们看到， 
我们的梦想，希望和期望
一个一个，
慢慢的实现，
要在他的慈爱里不断的祈祷
并完全的相信他。。

T.T 1 hour to write this thing, finally finish liao
Even took me 30mins to recall what I had spoken haha
Chinese is hard to chew, like vegetable~~
Thanks God

resting time during midnight ^^

I'm already quite busy, still got time to rest and blog,
Well,
the competition is next week,
fear had begun to strike myself,
I do not know how will the competition turn out,
but I will do my best in it,
at least this is what I feel now,

you'll never regret as long as you work for it,
even if you fail you can still smile and be happy and tell yourself,
I had do my best,
to be able to do my best,
I'm already my own champion

this very moment leh,
I once again look at the sky,
dark but beautiful,
I'm happy,
although not very much, I'm still happy,
my head is still pain this moment,
yet i still need to push myself for good,
continue to read,
it's what I wanted to do,
such small small matter i don't want to take medicine,
someone teach me not take medicine because it's bad,
so I change my tiredness and pain into energy,
driving myself harder to finish what I begin with.

this moment,
I begin to wonder what it's like at other IPG, especially Perak, Penang and Sabah,
one day, I'll create a chance to meet with other TESL trainee,
let's put this in my miracle list for now,
I really wonder if she's looking at the same sky as I do hoohoo,
let's see,
well,
maybe gua~~

quite worry about my friend condition haiz~~
pray that God will look after him and his family~~

alrite,
it's time to continue where I left,
so goodnite Felix laptop,
I'll give you a rest.
you had work hard for me...

A Relationship??

When people do not meet the standards we set, 

we become disenchanted with the relationship, 

allowing disappointment and frustration to set in. 

It's easy to get along with people when everything is going great
and others are acting exactly the way we want them to. 

But what happens when something goes wrong and our feelings get hurt? 

If we're not careful,
we'll begin to focus on the unmet expectations
which will affect our attitude,
and ultimately, our relationship.

But it doesn't have to be that way if we will just learn to have realistic expectations and let people off the hook.
We can avoid a lot of heartache by simply giving people room to be human.
We have to accept the fact that nobody is perfect, and even the best people will fail us at times.
We have to choose forgiveness because it is not up to anyone in our lives to keep us happy; that is our own responsibility.
Too often, we want our mate to cheer us up when we are down; we expect our partner to always be loving and kind.
We expect our lecturer to recognize our hard work and our friends to always be there for us.

But those are unrealistic expectations.
The perfect spouse does not exist, nor does the perfect lecturer, nor the perfect friend.
We would avoid a lot of disappointments by simply understanding that
no matter how much we love people,
no matter how much they love us, at some point,
they won't live up to our expectations,
or they will hurt our feelings in some way.
But when we get our eyes off their shortcomings and on to Jesus,
we open the door for His grace and healing in our relationships.
We open the door for love which is all that matters in eternity.