11.11.11 for my love

An ordinary girl whom I love 

What is it that I was seeking?

Love? Company? You?

You are just an ordinary girl

You do things every ordinary girl do

You eat, you sleep

You refuse to be scolded

And wanted to be loved

You are nothing more than an ordinary girl

Who weeps when sad

Smile when happy

But it is that ordinary you

Which make my world go extraordinary

Look

You

Yes YOU!!

Look into the mirror

What do you find?

I’ll tell you what will you find

Inside there

Is a figure so perfect and so beautiful

Like an angel with her upmost glory

A figure who I love

You are just an ordinary girl

There’s nothing special about you

You get angry when I’m mad at you

You refuse to wake up early

Always sleep so late

You do everything without fear

Without fearing the consequences

You get jealous when I’m too close with other girls

You complain when I did something you don’t like

You are just an ordinary girl

Really you are

You are nothing special

I can’t compare you to the beauty of the summer

Nor the beauty of the night sky fill with star

I don’t even dare

To compare you to a garden full of flower

Nor to the heaven so perfect and beautiful

You can be none of them

Because you are just an ordinary girl

My love, my love, my love

I am proud proud to tell you that

I love you being ordinary

You angry because you care

You sleep late to accompany me

You get jealous because you hold me precious

You do not fear

Because you know an angel is watching over you

But still, try to snap yourself out of laziness my love

You complain because you really care

You can’t be compare to the summer

Because your beauty shines brighter than the summer

The nightsky is beautiful

It is because the only things I can see in that vast sky,

Is you

I can’t compare with the garden of flower

Because you are gorgeous, handsome beyond words

The heaven is always perfect and beautiful

That is because you show me heaven

You are just an ordinary girl

With an ordinary life

But you lead a life of satisfaction

You are the extraordinary angel of my life

An extraordinary existence

That will always, always remain so beautiful

Although time will fade away your beauty

But my love for you will never

Because you are just an ordinary girl

Who makes my life extraordinary

Love you,

Felix

A great medicine that cures anytime, internal external? no problemo!! ^_^

You know what?
sincerely say
I prefer being a kid
Without any worry and without any problem
The more we step into adulthood
The more the problem the came crashing
The more the things that come haunting for us
Be it with relationship, family or friend
and most importantly with God
we all face the same problem
things may bring us down

I often am
Making so much mistakes in the first place
Where apologizing becomes my norm
What should we do?
I can't provide a concrete answer to that
However
I heard a great rumor that
There's a kind of medicine somewhere in this world

This special medicine can cure any disease and problem
Be it physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually

What is this medicine that I'm trying to tell you all about?
This medicine is always within me and you
Is always there for us to use
To solve our problem whenever we are in pain

This special medicine is non-other than our beloved Jesus

Har? you tell yourself
It's true and it's undeniable
Whenever i face any trouble
I seek for His help
He's always by side
To care and to love me
He's my best friend all in all
He's my guardian
He's my refuge when I'm in trouble

I know that things are said easier than done
Problem does come
I'm currently facing a lot
But with His power by my side
I know who I can refer to when I'm lost
I know my place in this world because of Him
I know that I'm valuable even if no one else love me
I knwo that I'm always love

Because i have Jesus in my heart
My only trust-able friend
My only guardian
My king and my savior

I admit that I am still in a dilemma
I am still struggling to solve problem by myself
But slowly, He let me realize that
He is everything
He will always provide a solution to our problem
We need to trust him
To believe that He will help us
because faith in Jesus Christ
means everything
and that's the only thing we need

Amen

He never abandon us =D

I was once a hermit that travels between the dark and the light. I always do thing by my own will. I stop praying since I was form 3 because I thought that it religion is no longer an important thing. Although I worship and I join others in religious activities in the Boy’s Brigade for almost 12 years, back since I was 7 years old. My spiritual life was not as strong as others. I have come to realize the importance of God and have been trying to get better in my spiritual life since. I’ve try many methods, going for seminar held by church, involve in more charity, try to read bible and pray every night but I fail to do so. Because in me, God was never that important.

I was someone who is afraid of death, although I’ve heard about Jesus Christ, his salvation and the connection between life and dead, but I never really care.

This situation continues on for 3 years until I’m 18 years old. When I was summoned to Batu Lintang Teacher Training Institute as a teacher-to-be, my very own salvation begins. It was when I first step into the world of adult that everything started to change. Believe me, God will never abandon you. He will try to bring you back to His side.

Before I came to Batu Lintang Teacher Training Institute, I met a girl during my first interview to become a teacher-to-be. She leaves me with a very strong impression. But since we do not know each other, I might as well just forget about her.

But God does create miracle. I found her again, and we’re able to get to know her well when I was in my institution. Like me, she is a teacher-to-be studying somewhere else. I know for very sure that this is God’s arrangement. During my first week of orientation in my institution, I was both physically and mentally exhausted during midnight. I felt like giving up, pack my beg and go back to my hometown.

It is then that her sms give me the will to go on. She will always ask me and comfort me when I was down. Eventually she became a very important person to me. Then, one day I was traumatized by the fear of death again. God at that time send me her angel, the “she” that I know. She comforts me and soothes me with the word of God. My life began to change since. I never fear death anymore. My spiritual life becomes stronger. As time pass by, I began to take bigger step towards knowing God.

I was once a sinner, and I still am, but I found myself to be peaceful at time, more calm and are able to practice things God wanted me to.

I don’t know how is her now. But I thank God for her.

God loves us, He will never abandon us. Seek him and pray to Him. He will hear your prayer.

By,
Felix Tong Jia Wei
18/07/2011
10.25 P.M.

Long Distance Relationship

@@~~ I love this picture~~ Remind me of someone <3

Being in a relationship is hard enough
How about a long distance relationship?
To maintain a long distance relationship is not simple
As time pass by
More and more problems will surface
Trust will become the key to everything now
If there's not enough trust
A relationship might ended up = 0

A relationship happens when two person
(in this case, a male and a female)
who are staying far away from each other
For example east and west Malaysia
Fall in love with each other
Long distance relationship is not a hindrance
For true love comes from the heart
and not from one's appearance
This kind of relationship needs much more trust than an ordinary relationship
Mainly it's because the couple couldn't see each other everyday
This had already cut down couple's mark by 30%

But as I stated above
Distance is not a hindrance
What with the can't-see-you-everyday problem?
What is with the can't-see-you-can't-trust-you?
Of course, going into a relationship requires time
When two individuals started to notice the good in each other
That's when love started to spark
We can't blame one for not putting trust into his/her partner
All human has curiosity
It's just normal not to trust 100%
But this can't be a hindrance either

A long distance relationship is a world full of challenge
Full of curiosity and full of uneasiness
But a long distance relationship is far
And I mean far purer than any kind of relationship
It's a form of true love
It's not easy
But when trust and love are there
Nothing is impossible

I've seen many successful long distance relationship couple myself
And all of them have the same answer
Being with her is everything
I won't suspect her
I decided to trust her
Even if one day this relationship may fail
But I trust her
Am I right friend?
Long distance relationship holds more than this
It's because the both of you can only see each other once in a long time
You will miss your other part everyday
This feeling of missing someone dearly is a common feeling share among
the long distance relationship couples
Because they meet each other once in a while
The couple cherish their partner very much
The feeling of wanting to see him/her
The memory of togetherness that can only be feel once every long while
And the effort both partner share to keep the relationship go
This is the sweetest time a long distance relationship couple feel

Long distance relationship is not impossible
It's just that most people just don't trust this kind of relationship
But let me tell you
Long distance relationship
Will not fail
Instead, the love the shines in this relationship is more powerful than a normal relationship
A little trust
And a little freedom for your partner to do what they want
Can keep the relationship firm
Just don't hold your partner too tight
Give them some space
But at the same time
Limit them from doing certain things
But don't overdo it


A long distance relationship is possible
And I believe in one
And I will continue to believe so
Put in some effort
Entertain your partner
Make him/her laugh
Cheer for him/her
Video call her
Or call her often (beware, don't too often, everyone need their private time, but do call often)
It just requires you to put in some sweat
Work a little harder than a normal couple



In love to
Miss Oink Oink

Think, please think!!!

Things are not always what you think they are

Or what you think they aren’t

Things just happen

You see, often, or most of the time, or always

We only think of a problem from one dimension

We always do

And we never cease to do it

This is when we neglected some important fact

And this will eventually lead to problem

Such as quarrel

I do not deny this

I admit been like this

We as a human

Our first instinct will tell us all the negative stuff about our problem

We often lost ourselves

Fill ourselves with anger

With jealousy, with greed

With hatred

When we do

We hurt

We scold

We misunderstand

We stand on our own ground

We stand for ourselves

What if things weren’t mean to be like that?

What if one’s intention was not to angered you?

What if that person was not what we thing he/she should be?

Then will you plant a wrong accusation on him/her?

Or would you do it without realizing you’re doing it

Take a couple as an example

The girl told the boy that she’s talking to another guy over the phone

The girl trusted her boyfriend

She won’t hide anything from him

She expect her boyfriend to understand

But you know guys

This is when he gets jealous

His jealousy gets to the head of his senses

He’s angry

The quarrel happen

If the boy would just control his emotion a little

Sit down, relax and think carefully for a while

Appreciate his girlfriend for trusting him

Everything won’t happen

It’s time to start thinking from different dimension

This maybe more difficult than we thought

But as time goes by

We’ll get use to it

In this way we can avoid conflict

We will not wrongly accuse others

We can be emotionally balance

Take another example

A friend

At first you are ok with him/her

But you heard how your friend badmouth about him/her

You started to doubt

Whether she/he is such a person

Slowly

You accept the fake fact that she is a person like that

You fail to notice if the person bad mouthing your friend

Have a personal problem with your friend

What if your friend (that bad mouthed) just doesn’t really like your friend?

You want to be notice

You don’t want to be left out

And so you choose to avoid your friend

You’re actually causing more pain to him/her

You’re wrongly taking his/her’s fact

Think

My friend

Think

Please start to think from different angle of dimension

Things may not be the way it is

If your world are only about yourself

Then sorry

You’re just been selfish

Think for others

Think more

Think for your enemy

Think for friend

Think for everyone

Think before you act

Think…

Think…

If only you will think first

You can avoid a lot

And I mean a lot

Of unnecessary clash

Please think

Especially for those who you love

I hurt those I love many time before

Just because I don’t think first before I do anything

If only I think in her shoes

Then every conflict can be avoided

….

I regret

and I urge everyone

to think

from different dimension

think

for everyone

think

for the one you love

The boat had set sail

The boat sail away

From the once calm bay

To the wide broad sea,

anything await

I can never know

How the boat will sail

How long can it sail

But it certainly won’t be a pleasant

and welcoming journey

To the sea

I hold nothing back

A journey begins

For something that had ended

In search of the cure

For a broken heart

I never wanted to leave

The place of my safety

The place where once

Hope was never fade

But I have to leave

For it’s not there for me anymore

I may choose to stay

And endure the suffer left behind

Or I may leave

Bringing a heavier load

Which will eventually become lighter

As time pass by

The boat had set sail

To the sea unknown

In search for happiness

And a new place of safety

It will continue to set sail

No matter how much damage it will have to endure

Together with me

The boat will set sail

Leaving the land of...

love...

2011 @ Felix Tong Jia Wei

Copyright protected

This poem is not designated to anyone

It's just a mere creation

With no deeper meaning in it

Apple vs Love?

An apple a day keeps the doctor away
But a you a day keeps sadness away
Do you realize how serious things had become?
I can't survive a few day without your voice
I constantly worry about you even though there's nothing I need to worry about
You are always like that
Make me smile no matter where I am
Even looking at something will make me think of you

You run through my mind the whole time
It's like you can never disappear
Oh fair my love
It's that how you want me to be
Then for you my love shall be

Love is not easy matter
We both know that well enough
It's a type of endurance
From obstacles that will come ahead
From everything that challenge our faith
It's a type of give but not a take
Love is kind
And it requires patient
To understand love
I must understand you
Fair enough
I am doing it
And will continue to do
For you
and only you

I am a sinner

The power of love really had awaken me
From my long slumber of sin
My lord, my Jesus
Sacrifice Himself for me upon that cross
He's discriminate, Hated by His own people
After the church service
I went back to my room and cry
Cry like a baby, cry like I never cry before
Because...
I feel guilty of my sin
I am wrong all this time
I've done so many thing that's wrong
Jesus love me
He don't me to do all those stuff
I sinned!!
Even though I know I'm doing it
I did not put a stop on it
I sinned!!
I regret... I'm depress
For He love me so much
His pain, His tear
Are nothing for Him
For His only concern is on us
His beloved people
His beloved human
That type of pain, that kind of depression
Betrayal, Greed, Unfairness, Death
How can one endure so much? :'(

Jesus...
Your love is upon me
Your love is for everyone
Your crucification
Bring us our salvation
Thank you...
For been there for me
while I'm shedding my tears
It's not too late to change
Because I still have You
A friend...
who will never leave me...
Your sacrifice...
Your agape love...
Your pain...
One can't endure that level of discrimination
But you choose to forgive them
You never say a word of discomfort
You...
You love those who hate you
Blessed those who badmouth you
You...
Jesus...
I love you

Acceptance vs Feeling~~

It's not always true

But yes, while looking at it

You may realize something~~

Human relationship can be so fragile

A good friend of yours may be an enemy of yours the next instance

Sometime, things happened

And sometime the situation is totally unfair

One's word, one's opinion may change your view toward someone

Am I right?

Others are constantly bombarding you 

with the idea that he/she is bad

but really~~

something you do not observe yourself cannot be trusted

even if you do observe

something...

you may still be influence by others

why?

because you're trying to be one of them

you do not want to be belittle my others

but how will you feel?

when that particular person is hurt because of your behavior

every human has feeling

and I truly believe in that

even the most renown criminal has feeling

why keep on hurting that person?

you should do what your feeling tell you to do

and not by the view of others

not just to be accept by others

everyone deserve to be accepted

And everything need to be view from multiple side

Be tolerant~~ but not too much

When you can't forgive and forget

You had manage to steal some happiness away

From both you and the person you're trying to forgive

Forgive and forget may really make you look like and idiot

But what is in for you?

Are you trying to keep this longer?

Anything beneficial?

I don't think so

It's up to you to decide

Your ways of handling your relationship with others

One thing I just want to remind all of you

Your goal~~

Isn't something connected to this world

It's been long~~

Lets see ~~
How long had it been since I last write my blog?
Ouch!!
Well, life had been pretty busy lately
there's not much time to rest down and really write
have practice for drama
assignment to finish
homework to be done
revision to do
sports day is also near liao~~
same goes to my campus Language Camp
this is my path though~~
it's what I choose
A path of an educator
With the knowledge I gain
I'll use it to it's fullest potential in the future
For this world
For everyone around me
And most importantly for God
No matter how big your dream is
Never forget your job for Father's Kingdom to come
Any job, anyone, anywhere, anyway
We held responsibility
For Him
Just pass by to see my blog
I'll try to keep this active

Have a happy day everyone :-D