11.11.11 for my love

An ordinary girl whom I love 

What is it that I was seeking?

Love? Company? You?

You are just an ordinary girl

You do things every ordinary girl do

You eat, you sleep

You refuse to be scolded

And wanted to be loved

You are nothing more than an ordinary girl

Who weeps when sad

Smile when happy

But it is that ordinary you

Which make my world go extraordinary

Look

You

Yes YOU!!

Look into the mirror

What do you find?

I’ll tell you what will you find

Inside there

Is a figure so perfect and so beautiful

Like an angel with her upmost glory

A figure who I love

You are just an ordinary girl

There’s nothing special about you

You get angry when I’m mad at you

You refuse to wake up early

Always sleep so late

You do everything without fear

Without fearing the consequences

You get jealous when I’m too close with other girls

You complain when I did something you don’t like

You are just an ordinary girl

Really you are

You are nothing special

I can’t compare you to the beauty of the summer

Nor the beauty of the night sky fill with star

I don’t even dare

To compare you to a garden full of flower

Nor to the heaven so perfect and beautiful

You can be none of them

Because you are just an ordinary girl

My love, my love, my love

I am proud proud to tell you that

I love you being ordinary

You angry because you care

You sleep late to accompany me

You get jealous because you hold me precious

You do not fear

Because you know an angel is watching over you

But still, try to snap yourself out of laziness my love

You complain because you really care

You can’t be compare to the summer

Because your beauty shines brighter than the summer

The nightsky is beautiful

It is because the only things I can see in that vast sky,

Is you

I can’t compare with the garden of flower

Because you are gorgeous, handsome beyond words

The heaven is always perfect and beautiful

That is because you show me heaven

You are just an ordinary girl

With an ordinary life

But you lead a life of satisfaction

You are the extraordinary angel of my life

An extraordinary existence

That will always, always remain so beautiful

Although time will fade away your beauty

But my love for you will never

Because you are just an ordinary girl

Who makes my life extraordinary

Love you,

Felix

Apple vs Love?

An apple a day keeps the doctor away
But a you a day keeps sadness away
Do you realize how serious things had become?
I can't survive a few day without your voice
I constantly worry about you even though there's nothing I need to worry about
You are always like that
Make me smile no matter where I am
Even looking at something will make me think of you

You run through my mind the whole time
It's like you can never disappear
Oh fair my love
It's that how you want me to be
Then for you my love shall be

Love is not easy matter
We both know that well enough
It's a type of endurance
From obstacles that will come ahead
From everything that challenge our faith
It's a type of give but not a take
Love is kind
And it requires patient
To understand love
I must understand you
Fair enough
I am doing it
And will continue to do
For you
and only you

300 DAY!!!

65 days left~~

It's been a long way

So many things happened

Nothing is within our expectation

It's all just

So fast

In a blink of an eye 

300 days had passed

Walking down the places we've been through

I know deep inside that

I miss you so~~

There's nothing I can promise you

There's nothing I can give you in return

For everything you've sacrifice for me

It's too much

Your heart

Your soul

Whisper to the very end of my soul

Everything you did for me

I will carve it deep within me

Because there's no other like you

No one like you

You embrace my deepest wound

Healing it with your love

You hurt me sometime

So that I'll become stronger

You try to instill me with greenness

So that I'll love you more

You never forsake me

You stay by my side

And that's the very thing I want

The most precious gift

That I will cherish forever

You're my angel

My 小天使

My little princess

My 小公主

My sleepyhead

My little piggy

My 小猪猪

My 小傻瓜

My little apple

My darling~~

Our eyes were separated far

But our heart knows no boundary

Everyday your eyes shimmer in me

Your voice soothe my soul

Your care lift me up

Your singing bring me deep to rest

I know

And I know

There's so many things I can't do for you

I'm unable to be at your side

When you're feeling unwell

When you're feeling down

When you're crying for care

When you're wandering around

When you need me by your side

Cellphone is our only option

Accompany you by the cellphone

I realize I can do only that much

But one thing I'm very certain

Is that I will always love you

I remember everything we've been through

The memory of a short togetherness

I remember

I remember

Although it's just for a while

But I'm satisfy

And so I miss you so much

For one day 

One day I'm sure

We'll be able to be together again

Because I trust you

Darling

For stay by my side

Always

You stay even though I make you sad

There's so many thing you've sacrifice for me

And your sacrifice will not be in vain

For I will always remember

I will always cherish

A girl like you

There's no other like you

Because you are you

The you I love

Be it

I've chosen you

I will not regret

Because I've taken the other path

I've forsaken the road that seems to be safe

To pursue your love

I will not be able to love you alone

Only through the hand

That holds the glass

Should the brick be break

The brick, a sinister power that destroy us

And the love that is as fragile as a glass

That is easily break by the brick

Will be protected

Be strengthen

By the hand of The Almighty Father

The Alpha of Love

It's you

I know it's you

Thank you

As I gaze up the blue sky

I can see a wide smile

Is that you?

Are you ok?

Is everything fine?

Feeling good?

How's your life?

Fun?

Sad?

Nah... you're always happy

Because you're more than sadness

You're happiness itself

In my heart

Your beauty are of no equal

Your kindness meets no boundary

Your love is limitless

The luckiest guy on earth?

That should be me ^o^

Because I have you

To love~~ 

My dear darling~~

I would rather be somewhere alone with you
Instead of praying you're feeling like I do.
I'd rather be staring into the depths of your eyes
Searching, exploring, knowing, loving ...
My secret, I have decided to disclose to you.
I've never seen you, never met you, never heard
Or smelled, or touched you, never known
But truth be told,
I'm deeply, truly, madly in love with you.
Just because I know that you're in love with me too
And the nights I am secretly needing you
You're longing for me too.
To many, my tears seem insignificant
They're meaningful to you.
Someday our winding paths will meet
And I'll just know, I've found you.
Till that day, we'll have to wait
Because when we find each other
And the depths of hearts are revealed
Our love will be eternal
Worth every tearful moment that we've waited.
Though we are apart for yet another night
Our moment is a day nearer.

Just the way you are

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy




*When I first look at this song
I know exactly what this song means
It's talking about you
You are really amazing
Your smile
And your face which I always can't seem to reach
That's always just near to my heart


Many things had happened through and through
But I never care about what happened in the past
The most important thing now is that
You are by my side
And that's everything I can wish for
Thank you
For been a part of me
Which brings joy to me


Don't change
I love you
Just the way you are
And I hope you'll always
be the who I love
because of who you are


We may not have much time together
and distance stand as a large boundary
But I will continue to have faith in you
From today onward
I hope you'll accompany me
In pursuing my dream
And I want to see your dreams
Been realized


Start your new day with me
Because you're amazing
just the way you are
and I'm here for you
I'll stand here for you
Challenging this world


Smile Big
And the World
will Smile alongside you
Because whenever you smile
My world blooms with grace
I'm here
Don't you worry*

Weird Prayer~~~

I have a lecturer with similar story, so it reminds me of the prayer I made
What a coincidence ha?

Me         : Do I love her? 

God       : What do you say?

Me         : I do

God       : So?

Me         : I do not know if she likes me

God       : And?

Me         : What should I do? Everything is so hectic now

God       : So?

Me         : What if I fail and everything change?

God       : So?

Me         : Then we’ll never be friend again, this is my first time

God       : So?

Me         : I don’t want to lost her company

God       : So?

Me         : I cherish her very much

God       : So?

Me         : Then tell me what to do, I’m depressed

God       : So?

Me         : I need to tell her

God       : So?

Me         : It’ll be too late if I don’t

God       : So?

Me         : Will everything turn out alright?

God       : And?

Me         : Should I fear if You are with me?

God       : And?

Me         : Maybe I should do it right?

God       : And?

Me         : ….. It’s do or die, I believe in You

This goes the first part of my weirdest conversation with God, dated back at 24^th of July 2010

And here goes the second part of my weirdest conversation with God, dated 16^th January 2011

Me         : Up to this point, do I really love her?

God       : What do you understand by love?

Me         : Love is patient

God       : And?

Me         : Love is kind

God       : And?

Me         : It does not envy

God       : And?

Me         : It does not boast

God       : And?

Me         : It is not proud

God       : And?

Me         : Why do You keep asking me “and”?

God       : So?

Me         : ….It does not dishonor others

God       : And?

Me         : It is not self-seeking

God       : And?

Me         : It is not easily angered

God       : And?

Me         : It keeps no record of wrongs

God       : And?

Me         : Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth

God       : And?

Me         : Ergh =.=’’’ …It always protects

God       : And?

Me         : Grrr… always trusts

God       : And?

Me         : Always hopes

God       : And?

Me         : Always perseveres

God       : Then you know yourself if you love her

Me         : Yes I love her, but there’s so many things that troubles me

God       : So?

Me         : How am I going to solve everything?

God       : So?

Me         : I desperately need help

God       : And?

Me         : How should I remove the ghoul in my heart?

God       : And?

Me         : Will I be able to end up in a marriage with her?

God       : And?

Me         : I should be patient and kind?

God       : And?

Me         : I should trust her whole fully as herself

God       : And?

Me         : Everything is in Your hand…

God       : And?

Me         : I should cherish the angel who I have now…

God       : And?

Me         : … thank you

Although weird, but finally I can see through the other side of things, why everything happened, although it’s still a little unreasonable, but at least, my heart is open wider than before. There’s more to the conversation, but sorry, I’ll have to keep it private.

<3 u sleepyhead :-)

I will ~~

Walking along the path

where the darkness of the day fall

I know you were there

I thought you're right beside me

for a while I feel so

Before I wake up with no one by my side

I continue to walk

down the dark night path

when the smooth wind is trying to whisper to me

love her

trust her

and she's just there

just right beside you

I feel you along the way

So strongly that I began to smile

To laugh tears of joy

It was never easy without you around

I may have my own friend

I may have my own life

I may have everything wonderful around

But it just feels so different without you around

it was never easy

for me to live everyday missing you

every moment of my life

I feel joy and happiness

and at the same time

missing you so strongly

We have our own life to live

Our own schedule to be busy with

And thus

Cutting down on the time we can communicate

And we've been tired

it's not like we are energetic enough to talk for so long anymore

tired belongs to tired

but you belongs to me

No matter how tired I am

I'll make sure that calls you become my priority before I sleep

Sometime pains really build in

But I don't mind about it

as long as it's you

as long as it's the you that I love

I can still stand strong

although tears may accompany sometime

I cherish you

really cherish you

maybe sometime it's very bothersome

but I just don't want your mind to leave me 

I just hope you'll always think of me just I think of you everyday

Future path may turn out to be difficult

but I'm willing to face it

even if things may not turn out to be my way

at least I love

I really love you

and I need you by my side always

you've already met every bits of my expectation

you're really perfect

I respect you

and love you as a whole

After been through so long

I've decided

that you're happiness should be my priority

I may not know how to do it

but I'll do my very best

to be the very best in you

not only for you

but for myself

because I just realize how much your smile means to me

I will~~

I must~~

I can~~

Love you

Darling,
I believe in you
As the God who loves shows me the way
There's still a long long way to go
stay by my side
and together we go
and watch as I progress with my life
in loving you
more~~

Before I met you

Before I met you,
I thought I was happy,
and I was,
but I had never known
the rich contentment,
deep satisfaction,
and total fulfillment
you brought to me
when you came into my life.


Before I met you,
I felt a lot of things,
good things,
but I had never experienced
the indescribably intense
feelings I have for you.


Before I met you,
I thought I knew myself,
and I did,
but you looked deep inside me
and found fresh new things
for us to share.


Before I met you,
I thought I knew about love,
but I didn’t,
until I met you.

200 day of love

It’s already the 200^th day @@~~

Awesome isn’t it?

It’s like a dream

A long long dream

It’s almost like the thing happened yesterday

We met each other

Out of nowhere

And now

She’s the most precious person ever

How fast can time flow?

Reading through all the sms

Recalling all the phone call we make

Remembering every small details that we’ve been through

It was never easy

Separated by South China Sea

The gap in between is so far

So far….

So far….

Everything seems almost impossible

For once,

I thought

Everything had come to an end

It’s not possible anymore

And she deserve someone better

The struggling is such a fuss

Every day pass as though it’s just a dream I should wake up

But miracle still happen

Most probably it’s because God heed to my prayer

I miss her everyday

Although far away

Her smile had been carve deep into my heart

The sky

Had always been the only place

Where her smile shines brightly

Sometime she really scares me off

Most of the time she makes me worried

None of the time she will get out of my mind

But all of the time her beautiful smile accompany me

Through rough and smile

If you ask me

She’s the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen

Both inner and outer

She’s more like my little angel

My cute little princess

Who can constantly carved a smile on my face

Although sometime a little sobbing

I’ve change a lot

I do

I noticed it

Both emotionally and spiritually

But not physically >.<

Although not much

The effect is great and it’s positive

Her voice

The voice of a great melody

Sweet and calming

I’ve always like her singing

Although I’m not a good singer myself

But singing with her make me feel her around

That’s the most enjoyable time ever

Every time I sing for her

Every time we sing together

Every time she sang for me

Every night

I thank and praise God

For God had let us meet

She’s a miracle

Truly a miracle

I do not care might happen in the future

But regret is never a word I will spit out

We met for a reason

A reason only God himself know

As long as I have the power to love

I will protect her

Because I love her

Do you know? What I want is only your smile :-)

You may never realize,
how much you had changed my life,
But your smile,
that curve on your lips,
I can never express my thanks enough to you,
how you had brighten up my life,
but I in return can't be of any help,
unlike you,
who brings joy and happiness to me,
I can't do the same thing to you

Your tears, your pain,
which I can't feel,
are like little needles,
that strikes into my heart,
although I can't understand what you've been through,
but I feel the pain,
this very moment,
I want you to smile,
I want you to be happy,
but I do not know how,
I can only keep on praying and praying non-stop,
Like I always use to be,
Every hours,
I put my faith into God,
trust that God will handle the rest,

:'( I will keep my spirit high,
and happy, so that you won't need to worry about me,
Your fragile heart,
is what I care the most for now,
Even as going as for as to pray that I can take over all your pain,
let me who feel it and not you,
but it's impossible,
because,
Jesus Christ,
will be the one,
who will take away all your pain and sadness,
entrust your pain to Jesus,
rely on Him
I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY!!!
PLEASE SMILE AND BRING JOY AND HAPPINESS TO EVERYONE AGAIN,
PLEASE BE HAPPY!!!

My Almighty Father,
heal her with your word,
embrace her with your unfailing love,
she need your help very much,
freed her from all the pain and suffer,
let her move on in your guidance,
Father, I trust and I believe You,
please Father,
I want her to be happy,
I dislike her to feel pain like this,
I hate the feeling of unable to do anything,
God,
guide her,
halleluyah,
guide her Father,
halleluyah,
guide her Father,
halleluyah,
guide her Father,
halleluyah,
Father, please, heal her heart,
Father, be with her,
Father, love her,
Father, stay with her, keep her heart warm
Father, protect her who I love
Father, let her smile again,
she still have many activities to attend,
Bless her, love her
Never let her feel alone,
God,
please heal her
so that she can continue with her life

Amen

Hahaha ~~ It's time to move on and let the past be the past

The evening sky is so bright today,
I was there again,
At my window, looking high up into the evening sky,
The birds were flying around as usual,
I stand there, smile and almost laugh aloud :)
There was my senior,
looking at me from the opposite block,
he smile at me,
perhaps wondering the reason I'm smiling :)
I smile back :)
And then I saw,
Far to the right,
the yellow van I had always taken to go out,
Stop at the parking lot,
And unload the passenger,
Among them, my friends,
probably back from some shopping mall,
carry their belonging,
slowly walking back to the girls' dorm,
they notice me by the window,
and they wave to me, smiling :)
I wave back, smiling too :)

I close my eyes,
both my hand hold each other tightly,
the surrounding become calm, and silent,
I lower my head,
I pray,
on everything I need to pray on~~
All my problem gone this very moment,
Everything that troubles my mind, gone,
like the wind, that blows and were feel no more~~
Suddenly,
a small tears rolls down my cheeks,
only that one little tears,
and no more,
I don't feel sad,
I wipe it,
that little tears I have~~

I know why and God know why,
I really miss her~~
Really miss her~~
Miss her a lot,
I hope I can travel back in time,
To where it all begins,
I hope I have a pair of wing,
that let me fly over to her,
but God say, everything happen for a reason~~
Believe in ME and I will guide you~~
Ah yes God,
You're right,
Just the very best wishes I can give her~~
Nothing more,

God, I love this feeling,
this feeling of missing her,
that You had allow me to have~~
It's time to move on with my life,
and slowly,
With Your guidance,
I will walk this path,
although it may seems hopeless,
but I know what to do,
because,
I must give up, on myself giving up,
because You never tell me to give up right?
That little drops of tears...
The feeling of missing her...
Is the recipe of...
S.M.I.L.E :)

miss? sure does ~~

Miss her liao~~
I'm wondering how is she now~~
Once again,
I feel warm and happy,
Because at least,
I have her to think of,
Although I miss others as well,
My family, my friends,
But she's the only person that can leave me happy when thinking of her,
I wanna get a grip of this happiness,
I want to,
let's rest for a while~~
thinking back into the past,
those sweet and bitter memory,
I feel happy~~
I will continue to smile :)
My angel,
May God bless whatever you're doing,
I'll cheer for you from within my heart
Miss you liao,

I know~~

I know you are there somewhere
Around my little treasure known as heart,
Although it may seems far,
but it's actually close,
the night sky is never the same,
although it may be always dark,
because the breeze change,
it's never the same
the feeling that hold such power,
the power known as love

The world is still turning,
wanting me to do what I must do
because the time is not there,
stopping it's track just for me,
so I need to keep on moving
carrying the hope that I believe in,
trusting one day my dream will come true,
and only in you thus the dream shall be realize

Missing You~~

I do not know your condition all the time,
I can't see or feel your sadness,
I do not know if you're hurt,
I do not know if you're depress,
I can't be there for you when you need me the most,
I can't do many things,

But still,
My support are always there with you,
Missing you every seconds of my life,
Praying for your happiness and well being,
Worrying about your condition,
I had never regret what I'm doing now,
I do not want anything back for all what I had done,
I just wish for you to able to smile all the time
Because your smile is very precious to me,

I dislike your tears,
I dislike your depression,
I dislike your hatred,
I dislike you been down,
I dislike you thinking negatively
Because you're strong!! I truly believe that

Less SMS doesn't mean I do not care about you,
but because I know you're busy,
I do not want to disturb you until you are really free,
Whenever you do not reply me within 30 minutes I know you are sleeping,
because that's what happen every time
I seldom online FB doesn't mean I didn't online at all,
Because the only thing I want to see in FB is your profile,
Nothing Else...

Every night, I'll smile thinking of you,
Every morning, I'll tell myself, you are at the other end of the world,
fight for your life like me,
Every food I see will keep me thinking if you're hungry,
Every assignment will remind me of how busy you are,
Every prayer will lead me to peace, knowing my prayer had already reach you,
Every rain will make me worry if you're soaked wet,
Every lecturer will let me think of your study,
Every song will remind me of your voice,
Every book will remind me of your word,
Every bible will remind me of your prayer,
Every people who smile at me, remind me of your smile,
Every second pass on happily thinking of you,
I will be happy as long as I know you're happy,

Although sometime it's painful without you,
But I enjoy every moment of missing you~~
Because of you, I learn how to overcome jealousy
Because of you, I learn to have patience in waiting
Because of you, I have energy to live my everyday life,
Because of you, I learn to trust, to believe
Because of you, I learn to put my faith into our Almighty Father
Because of you, I was saved and are able to accept Christ again
Because of you, I know how it's like to love

I don't demand an answer from you,
I just want to watch over you from far,
Wishing that you'll obtain your happiness,
Wishing for the best for you all the time

Missing You dearly~~