Only a minor announcement

Looks like stop blogging it's not my option anymore

Because

Really, 

Been upset and disappointed is a part of life

Small things that had turn to dust mean nothing

I still have a bigger dream to pursue

Maybe sometime things really won't go your way

It's never what you want

Sometime you may wish for one thing

But you get the other thing

It's common

But think about it

It's better than nothing

Because God has His work in you

There's a reason for everything

No matter how unreasonable it may seem

No matter how unacceptable it may be

There's always a reason

It surprise you

Bring you down

Bring you pain

But if you have enough faith in Him

You'll see what is behind every suffering

Your endurance will prove to be your key to success

Lots of thing happened

But do you have enough faith to endure this world?

Do you have enough faith to face every trial?

All of this thanks goes to sleepyhead

For telling me this

And volla!!!!

Looks like it doesn't take very long

For me to solve the doubt eh?

It's time to prepare for Chinese New Year

Oyea!!! ( Motivated!!!!! )

I GIVE UP!!!

There’s no use holding on to you

There’s no benefit gain with you

Do you know what you bring to my life is only pain?

Sadness? Depression?

There’s no happiness with you

You’re breaking my heart every moment

I do not need you anymore

Leave me

Time will help me to forget all about you

I know it’s hard

But I believe God will help me

Because it’s the right thing to do

Finally

God had give me an answer

strong enough

to dump you

You want to be happy?

Go ahead

But don't disturb me

My decision is final

No more holding back

I’m sorry

But you have to leave my life forever

I don’t want to even feel you anymore

I’m not going to bow down to you anymore

No more

I hate you

I rarely use hate

But I hate you

Hate you to the deepest of my heart

What’s the use of desperately want you by my side?

Why I want to hold the same pain

Go away!!

Scram!!

I'm angry

I'm disappointed

I'm upset

I can’t take you anymore

You destroy me

Totally destroy my life

I’ve made my choice

Let everything end once and for all

Slowly

You will vanish forever from my life

That’s when my true happiness comes

Sorry

Once in my life I’ll remember I like you

But now

I’ve turn that “like” into hatred

Putting you away from my life

Because of you

I almost lost everything

Tell me how you're going to repay me back?

I don’t want it anymore

No more

NO MORE!!!

I want my own life back!!!

I have enough!!

ENOUGH of everything of you

I never get anything back in return

Only pain and pain

I’ll live a new life

A life better than before

Even without you

I’ll remove you completely

There's enough reason for me to do this

I do not need your short term of happiness

which will in return bring me chaos

so

give up on you merely mean

I'm STRONG

not as weak as you think

Changes start from now

You'll be gone when morning shine again

Forever from my life

Sorry I had to be so rude

But you should understand why I'm doing this

Why I have to be so cruel

and so rude

I feel so much better

For letting everything burst out here

Don't blame me

Blame yourself

GOODBYE!!!

My old self~~

I am strong :'( , I must stand

Things are getting a little shaggy...

Trial...

it's a trial...

trial of our life...

human...

must they...

make others suffer?...

make others heart bleed?...

I know I am strong...

I need God...

I need Jesus...

I need the Holy Spirit...

Tears...

hold back no more...

but I must...

hold it back...

don't want...

make others worry...

don't worry about me...

I'm okay...

I can still smile :-)...

This trial...

I will walk nicely...

neatly...

carefully...

with...

God alongside me...

I fear them no more...

I am a strong person...

Friends...

I appreciate...

I understand...

You want to share my burden...

Don't worry...

God is sharing it with me...

I'm sorry...

I will tell no one...

what happened...

because...

there's a reason only...

I know why...

Because...

I believe I can get through it...

Believe in me...

and worry no more...

Cause I stand on my word...

The Happy Felix...

will never vanish...

through your life...

indeed...

at some point...

I need some one...

who can hear to me...

hear to my anger...

my sadness...

but...

I will disturb no one...

I believe...

I can...

God...

will heal the wounds...

and bring back happiness...

 I have total faith...


Tear...


no more...


will end...


soon...


the pain...


it's only temporarily...


I will become stronger...


Thank You...


God...


please...


continue...


to shield me...


with Your love....


I love You...

20102010 ~~ Finally, i wait for so long, A new start, a new journey

I had been waiting for 20/10/2010 ,
I've decided that many things will change today,
I want to live a life with no more regret,
This special day I pick as the turning point of some part in me,
of course not every part, some part need to be maintain,

Today, I'm embarking into a new chapter of my story,
Today, my spiritual part will be improve,
I will work far more harder to increase the bond between God and me,
I want Jesus to love me more,
I want to feel the work of the Holy Spirit,
Everything is perfectly schedule,
Every day, every hour, any time,
Had been scheduled beforehand,
God, My Almighty Father,
give me the heart to continue pursuing You,
get rid of my laziness,
let me live by Your side,
by Your unfailing love,

Also, 20102010
Today onward, I will dedicated myself to become a great future educator,
I aim to be the best,
I aim to guide my students to righteousness,
I aim to increase my English proficiency,
I want to improve my speaking more,
I want to improve my grammar, my vocabulary
I want to become a really great English teacher,
I want to improve my communication skill,
I want to improve my writing,
I want to score for success
I pray, I will follow what I had plan, and what I had determined,


20102010,
I do not want to live a regretful life,
Life is too short,
I want to cherish the present,
Strike hard into the unknown future,
which holds infinite possibilities,
I don't want to regret no more,
I've done enough to let me live a regretful live,
and from now on,
I will live my life fully

20102010,
I want to tell you,
Darling,
I love you,
and it's very much,
your happiness means a lot to me,
on this special day,
I have nothing to give you,
but you had given me the gift I want,
your smile, your voice and your happiness,
I want to love you a selfless love,
your happiness is what I treasure,
your freedom is my priority,
I only hope the best for you,
Thank you,
for giving me the happiness I need,
I feel happy,
because at least,
I have you to think of everyday,
I do not know what the future holds for us,
I want you to know that,
Darling, I love you,
Meeting you is a miracle,
My heart, is always there for you,
I believe God will determine everything,
for now, I only want to enjoy what I feel,
without asking anything back from you,
because I realize that,
everything I done, is my own will,
every happy moment still encircle my mind,
every sweet memory are still smiling at me,
your smile,
your kindness,
I still feel the warmness,
every songs you sing with me,
feel so much more wonderful,
your prayer, make life so much more beautiful,
thank you, darling ^^
I will be strong, and move on with my life happily,
Won't make you worry,
You're the best of the best,
Jia you in everything you do,
and May God guide your life,
I believe you,
You will realize your dream,
I miss you dearly ^^

20102010,
I want to change,
For a better self, a better educator
I will keep on believing,
and God will guide the way,
past will remain the past,
I won't stay with it anymore,
I will move,
to where my destination calls me

Day before debate competition

I was feeling unexpectedly down now,
mood down,
spirit down,
competition is tomorrow liao,
pray that God be with me, grant me strength and wisdom throughout the competition,
Jia You!!!
you can do it!!

Jerusalem ~ My Dream Destination

Jerusalem.....
The City of Heaven~~
The Holy Sanctuary~~
The Holy City~~
The Sacred Place where Christ is nailed on the cross~~

One of this day,
I would like to visit Jerusalem,
Walk along the path where Jesus Christ had shed His blood bringing the cross,
I want to try and experience the pain of bringing that cross too,
I want to feel my Lord feeling during that time,
I want to visit Jerusalem,
to feel the full power of the Holy Spirit,
To cry and pray,
thanking my Lord who had sacrifice Himself for my sins

One of this day I will go to Jerusalem,
Need to start saving money from now,
Pray hard so that my plan to go to Jerusalem goes well,
Of course, not before I really have time and the money needed,

I had decided that i will go to Jerusalem with my soulmate,
I do not know who will she be,
Or when will it be,
I'll stay and wait,
trusting God will arrange everything for me,
Pray that God will grant me someone who are willing to share my vision of life,
willing to travel far with me to Jerusalem,
willing to share every bit of happiness and sadness in Jesus Christ,


I will pray very hard,
Everyday,
So that my dream to go to Jerusalem can be realize,
No matter how long it will take,
I will visit it one day,
perhaps, within 2 or 3 years?
5 years or I don't know when....
But I will,
And God will let me visit there one day,
Of course, I'll pray even harder to work myself in welcoming the New Jerusalem

Almighty Father,
I put this dream into Your almighty hand,
realize my dream to travel to Jerusalem with my soulmate who I believe God You had already arrange for me,
I will wait patiently,
For the day You want me to head for Jerusalem

In the midst of exhaustion

Exhausted~~
During training my mind was off elsewhere,
traveling far far into the infinite space,
I think I didn't put in enough effort,
But still,
Tonight while worrying here and there,
I can feel the warmness of Gods' love in me,
My prayer had help to calm me down a lot,

Sometime I just don't know what I'm doing,
regretting after I had done it,
sometime things is not what you had even the least expected,
but I truly believe that,
It's not the time yet,
I know it's not,
For now, endure~~
Wish that God grant me a strong endurance in myself,
with patience and courage to endure, to wait for the right time,
no matter how long it'll be,
my faith in God will carry me on,
in the process I'll hurt, I'll be happy,
But this will make me even stronger,

Sometimes I would just feel like giving up what I've been believing and working on,
But I didn't~~
Because I know it very well,
God, you are right beside me this very moment,
watching over me,
You let me rest my head on your shoulder,
You tell me to not give up,
You tell me not to fear,
You tell me You will lift all my problems


Right now, I once again look into the dark sky,
No moon, no stars,
Still beautiful,
I accept the fact, and reality,
although hope is flowing away little by little,
I smile agn :)
I feel a sudden happiness again,
I know God is working behind the scene,
And He had grant down forgiveness to her,
Still can't stop missing her
I tell myself
I have no regret
because
I love You God
and
I love her~~~

"Silent Period" plan

Today is already 26 of September, just 4 more days left before 1st of October,
I've been planning on this "Silent Period" plan for a whole week,
with schedule and everything ready,
Pray that God prepare my mind and heart to take up this challenge,

4 more days to go~~

Felix get yourself ready