In the midst of exhaustion

Exhausted~~
During training my mind was off elsewhere,
traveling far far into the infinite space,
I think I didn't put in enough effort,
But still,
Tonight while worrying here and there,
I can feel the warmness of Gods' love in me,
My prayer had help to calm me down a lot,

Sometime I just don't know what I'm doing,
regretting after I had done it,
sometime things is not what you had even the least expected,
but I truly believe that,
It's not the time yet,
I know it's not,
For now, endure~~
Wish that God grant me a strong endurance in myself,
with patience and courage to endure, to wait for the right time,
no matter how long it'll be,
my faith in God will carry me on,
in the process I'll hurt, I'll be happy,
But this will make me even stronger,

Sometimes I would just feel like giving up what I've been believing and working on,
But I didn't~~
Because I know it very well,
God, you are right beside me this very moment,
watching over me,
You let me rest my head on your shoulder,
You tell me to not give up,
You tell me not to fear,
You tell me You will lift all my problems


Right now, I once again look into the dark sky,
No moon, no stars,
Still beautiful,
I accept the fact, and reality,
although hope is flowing away little by little,
I smile agn :)
I feel a sudden happiness again,
I know God is working behind the scene,
And He had grant down forgiveness to her,
Still can't stop missing her
I tell myself
I have no regret
because
I love You God
and
I love her~~~