It's been long~~

Lets see ~~
How long had it been since I last write my blog?
Ouch!!
Well, life had been pretty busy lately
there's not much time to rest down and really write
have practice for drama
assignment to finish
homework to be done
revision to do
sports day is also near liao~~
same goes to my campus Language Camp
this is my path though~~
it's what I choose
A path of an educator
With the knowledge I gain
I'll use it to it's fullest potential in the future
For this world
For everyone around me
And most importantly for God
No matter how big your dream is
Never forget your job for Father's Kingdom to come
Any job, anyone, anywhere, anyway
We held responsibility
For Him
Just pass by to see my blog
I'll try to keep this active

Have a happy day everyone :-D

I'm back :-D

2 weeks pause from blogging

And now I'm back

Muahahahahaha

But things are getting seriously pack lately

Exam is up ahead

Santubong one day recreational sports is near

Hahahahaha

This is life

Enjoy, stress

But I like it

:-)

God is with me,

what can be against me

So muahahaha,

Good day!!!

Returning Sunday~~

Back from holiday

This year Lunar New Year is quite a boring one

No expectation and no mood

Maybe it's because of having holiday for only one week

And everyone has to go back on the 3rd or 4th day of Lunar New Year

Well, this year marks a remarkable growth in myself

Although I can grow more

Many new experience

Sweet and bitter

Everything is just so awesome

Freakin awesome

Yeah, I wish I can say that

Looks like this world is out of my expectation

Not everything is as expected

It pains me when I have to think like this

But oh well,

What can I do

The only best option I have is to hand everything to God

Pray that God will always be by my side

When everyone else is gone

When everyone is not there

I can still have my Father by my side

sigh....

reaching adulthood

is much much more complicated than what I know

Is time to change again

It's fine if we try to change ourselves a little once in a while

I know which aspect to change

But I hope this small change will not bring harm to any

Hopefully hehe~~

Watch the airplane fly yesterday

Not a very good feeling to describe

Perhaps~~

The small gap won't be able to heal itself

for sometime...

because... ( sorry, i try not to have tear while recalling yesterday )

there's no doubt this time

this is the feeling it's meant to be

I turn around

The wind of the airplane blow through my hair

And my tears away

It's time to say goodbye

We'll meet again

:-)

Debate at Swinburne 22/1/2011

Today's debate was awesome

First of all

I'm really happy to see fellow debaters from last year

We have debaters who came all the way from

Uitm, Unimas, Inti College and Swinburne

The venue is at Swinburne

It was another wonderful experience

This time around

Instead of the British Parliamentary Style debate

We shifted to the Asian Parliamentary Style debate

which is the standard 3 vs 3 

Although it's 1 Win and 2 Lose T.T

But I've learnt a lot

And my debating skills had improve a lot

but still I'm not satisfy with my level

Hope that the plan to start a debating club in my campus will be realize

I'm going to fight back again ( flare all over !!! )

Because I'm the best among the best!!

Gogogo!!!

Kiddy Wednesday~~

This week I really become a small kid
Watching cartoon
Playing chasing
Playing Dodgeball
Singing
and many many more
Playing without any worries
Like a small kid
How long has it been?
I miss those moment

But all those feeling begin to disappear with time
As we grow up
Things begin to get complicated
It's never like when we're a kid
I really enjoy all of this
I love this feeling

And I also learnt about appropriate communication
How important is it
How powerful is it
We need it
to ensure a happy everyday

topsy turvy Wednesday

When you think about it
Our current mindset are set when we were very young,
Perhaps at the stage of been a little children
Lots of things are a whole lot more easier than you thought
When you view it the other way around
We human tend to see things to straight
Too forward
We can't bring ourselves to see the other side of a thing
Maybe something that you thing is impossible
Is actually so easy
You just have to change your mindset
Change what you think
Just focus on every positive things in live
We'll lose ourselves
When we try to keep holding on to those negative things
Let go of what you grab firmly
But it doesn't mean you should give up on it
You are just simply giving yourself your freedom
Let things go
But still cherish them with all your heart

View things this way
This is from my point of view
What are we really working on?
Why do we live life with so much difficulties?
It's undeniable pain is a part of life
But no matter how painful we are
Never do things for ourselves
Do it for the one who created us
Seek His kingdom,
Do everything for the sake of doing it for Him
Put it that way,
than life will become prettier and easier
Tell yourself to stop grabbing firm on things this world offer you
Just stop it now
Because it's not worth it
A temporarily happiness on earth
or an eternal happiness in the heaven?
you choose :-)
make a smart choice

Responsibility...
it's getting much more heavier as time pass by
But taking up responsibility brings in pleasure,
do you know that?
Taking up responsibilities is not an easy task,
yet it's not difficult
remember the joy and happiness you have?
when all your responsibilities are done?
It's really amazing
for accomplishing something
although it's not something that's worth mentioning
but at least we know we did it
we emerge victorious
we've defeated ourselves

Today I stupidly put in 2 teaspoon of sugar into my milo =='''
and it's really causing me headache
hoohoohoo...
I won't be using sugar for milo again
I'll go with milk powder instead :-)
Oyeah, the rain is so heavy it's causing another headache
when I jog for about 2 round the rain suddenly came pouring down
and I was all wet
gosh, weather forecast said that the heavy rain is estimated to be continue until tomorrow night
but thanks God, at least it's not going to rain continuously for month
I ate a RM11.90 chicken chop with BBQ sauce at SCR today
mymy, it's delicious
but it's quite expensive
once in a while :-)
Hey, I feel a little pleasure in it
because I got to spend my money
and I was enjoying the food

Road ahead is a rough one
full of right and left turning
full of big rocks and unexpected phenomenon
which is trying to stop us in our track
I will continue to put my eyes of faith in God
will keep on praying for power
the power I need to change the future generation the good way
hehehe
I'm pretty tired with today's time schedule
Still have some video to work on
But I enjoy the process in making the video
I was wondering again
Is she looking at the same sky as I do now?

Monday = Visit to the hospital

I went to the hospital today
Together with two of my roommate
It was quite a nice experience
As it was my first time in Hospital Kuching
It was a large place
Far bigger than the one at my hometown

Today I visited my roommate cousin
Who had an accident

When I look around the condition in the hospital
I saw lots of patients
They were going in and out non-stop
And I saw many patients who are the result of car accident
Of drug addict and many more

Just how little am I?
I felt pity at my own petitness
Who is unable to do anything about the current situation
I just feel really weak
Really so small
My power is so limited
Just how can I reached more power
More power to help those in need
More power to prevent accident
More power to prevent harmful act
More power.... more power....

Looking at myself I know
The reason why God had me go the path as a teacher
I know and I will carry out the mission
My mission
As a teacher to be
Is to change the world using education
To build a better next generation
I need more knowledge
More power
To help those in need

I will
Perfect this mission of mine

Next Generation!!!
Just you wait for me
I'm gonna change you!!!
I believe in God
HE who entrusted me with this mission

Goodnight :-)

Sunday of Ergh

Stomached saga continue today
It's surely a painful experienced
Having my stomach pain like this T.T
I had t go to the toilet for 8 times
Uwahhhh!!!

It's alright now
Only the stomach may still act a little weird

When I do a flashback on my life
In the years before
I realize one very important thing
Every year
God prepare someone for me
A person where I can "use"
To boost me up
A reason I can fight for

It's not very significant
But yet it's pretty meaningful for me
I can keep myself going
Is not because I do it for myself
But rather for someone elses purposes

But in the end
Everything I do
Should be ended up doing it for God
HE train me
in a way that no one else can figure it out

Mmmphh...
More trials up ahead
Tell ya all a secret
Finally a really sound night tonight hehehe
Reason?
S.E.C.R.E.T

Stomached Saturday T.T

Yipee ^o^
It's Saturday and it's shopping time!!!
Hahaha,
although the shirt I want can't be found anymore
I still have few weeks left
Just search for it then
Eaten Pizza and Fried Kolo Mee today
Delicious la haha

And my my
I have an awful stomached today
I've been to the toilet 5 times
And are still bearing the pain when I'm writing this blog now
Can't type longer
Gotta rest because of awful stomached

Despicable Friday

Not very much posting tonight~~

I'm too tired to be awake even for a few minutes~~

Oofff~~

My eyes are hurting again~~

Looks like stamina won't be replenish in a short while~~

Better get some sleep hahaha

Everyone enjoy your sleep tonight :-)

Have a great day

Ahh~~ yeah

Been a vice class monitor is never easy

Having problem with tutorial report liao >.<

And I realize I don't treat everyone equally

That's not what my mind should be set to

My believe is to treat everyone

with equal

regardless of their race

and I should continue to be

Gotta live a happy life eh?

I'll continue to pray

and I believe God will help me

Go away stupid problem

out out of my mind

out and you go muahahahahaha

will upload some new post later
If I can stay awake
"IF"

My Wednesday

3rd day of the new semester :-)

Things aren't really working it's way anyway~~

Not much happening anyway~~

until here I write today~~

I'm really so very sleepy and tired~~

AH~~ today's night class is ....

haha, it's still ok :-)

God will continue to be with me

I'll pray to my heartest content

Goodnite ~~

Gloomy Tuesday

Looks like my cheering up system isn't working quite well today haha,

I have no idea why,

maybe just a short period of malfunctioning of the system,

just like a computer software haha,

will recover very soon

but it's totally weird

it's not like I do anything @.@

maybe holiday mood is still on

2nd day of semester 2 ~~

ah well~~ 

carrying out the duty as a vice class monitor is not so difficult for now~~

responsibilities is there~~

we had a pretty interesting pregnancy education during social studies class,

oh boy haha~~ keep it to myself hahaha

had to read up trifles tonight

or I'll be in big trouble tomorrow 

Yesterday night my faith in God began to shake again

God I'm sorry

I'm really sorry for doubting You again

after a constant of few prayers I began to back to my faith

I have so much more to learn

So much more to do

There's no star again tonight~~

must be because of the rain

I look up at the sky

and one of my tears suddenly roll down

are you happy?

are everything fine there?

everything seems to pop up in my mind non-stop

I can feel the heavy feeling of missing you~~

missing you~~

1st day of Sem 2

Life can be a little better than usual huh?
Erh~~ Well,
welcome back to PPISMP Sem 2 Felix :-)

Starting this new Semester 2 as a vice class monitor is really putting some stress on me
Well, at least I take this duty earlier so that I won't have a to be a monitor during degree year
Social studies today I've been exposed to social issues such as child abortion
And yes it's not right to abort a child just because you do not want to take responsibilities
but we can't judge another person
we never know what or why someone do something
it's not in our power to do so
what we're able to do is just simply behave ourselves
know what we're doing
and guide the next generation as a teacher

have my bed located beside the window is pretty good eh?
still can continue to watch the sky during night time
still can see her :-)
life here won't be good enough without her
although we're very far apart,
but the happiness that can be achieve by missing her is there to accompany me
every single day

thanks God for been with me all this time
it's hard to leave home
holiday mood is still on
but life must go on
everyone is struggling with life
I'm grateful enough for been able to enter IPG
to take a step closer to achieve my dream

I'll pray everyday,
and pray that God will guide me in my study
I love Jesus Christ
he's the 1st to accompany me everytime
He had let me have my 1st experience as His friend

Mmm.... LDS
headache :-D
have to work even harder from now

No star tonight,
ah well,
the sky is still pretty calming
soothing~~
miss her :-)

Oopsie Turvy :-)

Under the hot scorching sun,
I sat on my bed,
I feel it again,
I really feel it again~~
It's almost at this time everyday~~
I'll smile without any reason :-D
Perhaps there's a reason,
Just kept it for myself for now :-)

Holiday almost end
1 month had pass in a blink of an eye
It's fast
totally fast
This year end of year holiday is another great journey for me
I'm accompany by laughter, tears and joy
Although it's not the most enjoyable holiday
But I'm satisfy
Because some of my wishes were granted this Christmas
Knowing this I'm happy
As long as the main wishes is granted all other side wishes can be excuse :-)

When I look into the sky now,
it's not so hot anymore
at least the bird are still flying around
Life is never what you wanted it to be
but knowing LIFE is what it wanted you to be
it's just like the weather
It change all the time
Things may not be what you wish for
But you can make what is given to you better
Disappointment is not an exception to everyone
But I'll be stronger and cleverer after that
Knowing the should and shouldn't in the future
Plan everything earlier :-)

Mmmphh...
the lovely smell is in the air
the smell of all that is wonderful
I remember the scent of every memory
floating around my head this moment
you still remember?

I'm on the top of the world looking;
Down on creation and the only explanation I can find,
Is the love that I found;
Ever since you've been around,
Your love put me at the top of the world :-)

Yeah, that's right,
it's the love that I found, ever since you've been around my life
that puts me at the top of the world

How do I miss you hahahaha

Wednesday?? Holiday??

Days are certainly making it's moves
And time waits for no one
Miracle...
There's too many miracle...
Christmas fever is already in the air
Hehe..
I'll be expecting every year Christmas :-)
Not for the all the present thou...
It's for something else, something much bigger haha

Well, not blogging much
Life had been constantly almost the same throughout the day
hey!!
The allowance is out!!
And my friends are returning
Hahaha
Surely there's more thing to do

Ayea, there's something I still need an answer on
Still searching for it
As I always say
B.E.L.I.E.V.E :-)

Some shocking news thou,
I will need to gather every prayer power I can get
Hmph....
Hope it's not getting more serious
I believe God is there to hear my prayer

Ayea...
Mmm...
No star tonight...
raining...
not gonna watch the sky for long...
it's freezing cold outside...
Will have to think of You Know Who inside the room hehe

Monday~Holiday~Another day

It's getting pretty boring these days

Well, 

holiday just start

and I was stuck

with no one to hang out T.T

Except for my laptop and my storybook

I have nothing else to do

But I enjoy reading the storybook thou

And I seldom go online now

Starting to read Proverbs now

Just read until verse 3

Will continue tonight

May God be with me

I realize I need Him more than ever

Haha, it's tough stepping into adult world

I need His guidance

if not I may find myself in lotta trouble

....

Gosh...

How much do I miss her really?

Hoping to see her pretty soon :-)

It's almost 200th day anniversary you know

I'll pray very very hard

For what?

hehe, S.E.C.R.E.T

Fewer blogging

Back at home
I've been thinking
Everything we do now
Affect what'll happen in the future
Had to think things carefully eh?

Well, this holiday maybe I won't be blogging everyday
Erm, that's all for tonight ba
Got something else to do

=)

The Day Before Holiday Starts =)

It’s Thursday and tomorrow I’ll be heading back to my hometown :-)

Starting to miss my home already

And at the same time

I wonder why I’m reluctant to leave this place for a month ++ thou…

Surely will miss of them during this holiday

Well, I wouldn’t miss friends from Sibu

Cause I’ve already plan to pay them quite a few visit during this holiday

Today is a happy day :-)

The seminar was quite a blast

It was fun and it taught me much

Learning how to control emotion effectively

Building up self-confidence

And effective communication? Haha

What makes me really happy is tonight >.<

We have our last night class for this semester

And we really enjoy today

I mean

We are all teenager right?

Should be open minded

Tonight is a “yellow” night hahaha

Everybody enjoys it thou…

It’s general knowledge al rite

It’s not like I’m very good in this thing…

Well… I don’t deny I know some

Hey!!

This is common knowledge!!!

But I don’t watch those “upper 18” video anyway

Well, let’s just say it’s a promise I need to keep

Ergh…

Won’t be sleeping tonight ba…

Had to rush portfolio =.=

Wish me all the best

And thanks God for a wonderful day full of joy and laughter

All the praise goes to Jehovah, our Father

A fairly different holiday perhaps?

Holidays every year aren't the same thou...
Looks like holiday this year feels different from the previous year
I wonder why is that~~??
There is no much expectation bout this holiday =.=
Haven't even plan what I'll be doing this holiday

Have lotta plan,
but neither of them seems to work out,
they can work out,
it's just that...
geez...

The only things I'm looking forward will probably be
Christmas and Christmas caroling
Ah... Harry Potter movie too?
While packing my luggage
tons of thought went through my mind
hmph..
holiday this year will probably turn out different
very very different indeed

Let's pray hard
And May God grant me with some useful activities
Planning to start jogging every morning as soon as Monday comes when I'm back
Taman Tasik or Sport Complex?
It has to be either one
No choice
Need to run 5 round around the campus field next year
If I don't start practice soon I'll be dead meat next year

Gotta remind myself most of the time
Ergh...
Still have a very strong weird feeling bout this holiday...
I really wonder why~~??
Oyea, have to correct some wrong doing =.= during this holiday

Still busy packing everything...
Very tired liao
Lots of sweating
It's time I snap out of my rest and blogging
and continue to pack everything :-)

Normal Thursday ...... hoooo

Today I was reminded again by how imperfect this world is...
But that doesn't mean this world is not beautiful or wonderful...
It's just imperfect...
You never know what will hit you the next second....
You never know what you may be experiencing the next minute...
You never know what what will happen in the next hour...
If only life can be smooth and clean...
then we can walk it happily...
well...
it certainly won't...
along the way...
we have to face lotta and lotta obstacles...
things will never seems logical for you,
but things just happen...
and you are unable to handle it...
you are depress...
you hold on to yourself...
you try to struggle...
and in the end...
it's either you fall or you win...
against yourself of course...

Things will not happen the way we want it to be...
We had to learn to accept things the way they are...
Facing it with all your might...
but humans often cannot survive...
they can't walk alone...
they need company...
they need God...

Regret?
I wonder...
After we did something we think is wrong...
we feel regret...
Ergh...
common things...
had to face it anyway...

What I'm trying to say here is that
"MINDSET"
I've been wondering about it for like months?
If only human can have full control over their mindset...
then there won't be so much trouble...
but well...
temptation... desire... greediness...
what a person think is the major "villian" behind every problem...
if only what we think can be completely control by ourselves...
we can't do it alone...
From what I learn...
let's just let God's word enter your life...
and influence your thinking...
pray...
and pray...
from the bottom of your heart...

Tonight sky is still the same...
the floating cloud...
mmm...
I wish she will be watching the same sky with me now...
at least...
at least...
hmph...