Horrible Terrible Nightmare

Yesterday night I was having a nightmare

It's really a nightmare

Everything seems so true

I was awake at about 12.00am

And I sweat a lot

really a lot

My heart pump an incredible speed

Scare...fear...

All came to me on that time

Desperate...

I seek comfort

But no one seems to be contactable

And I was like...

stuck there and sleepless for 2 hours

until finally...

my angel calls...

it's until then I can get to sleep again

It's really a horror nightmare

First...

I dreamed about war

I saw people die in front of me

Chaos were everywhere

I see children holding pistol

Shooting at their own family member

A massacre upon an entire country

And the destruction that the war bring upon this planet

It's horrible

Imagine

Little children of about

7 or 8 year old

shoot at their parent using a pistol

Force to self-destruct using human bomb?

the bloodshed in the scene...

cause me to tremble with fear

After a while I was shifted to another place

I saw motorcyclist riding bike at a dangerous speed

Police car chase after illegal racer

crossfire happened

innocent people by the roadside were all shoot down

Die...

And I see murderer

Murdering the innocent

Robbers killed for money

So many innocent life were lost

There was one where the

dead body was thrown into the river

Oh gosh!!!

The last part of the dream goes like this

And I was shifted to yet

Another place

white and blank

with nothing around

And I saw my family and my friend

They pop up one after another

and vanish right in front of me

they can't hear me

their face holds the expression of that of sadness

I'm trying to reach them

But I can't

Every step I took seems to bring me further away

I even saw her

vanish...

right in front of me...

vanish...

my family...

my friend...

her...

everyone...

gone....

I run without any direction

I just keep running

And the road never seems to end

...I'm scare...

I'm trembling with tremendous fear

and I woke up....

With my T-shirt all wet...

I quickly grab on to my prayer

And it somehow calms me down

I never want this nightmare again...

For what reason I'll have this nightmare

Perhaps it's because of over full

Eat too much >.<

But I believe dream is just a dream

Hopefully...

Thanks God my little angel is still there for me

Hope to Further study oversea

I was overjoyed with the news that Malaysia Government will give as much as RM 700 million for IPG TESL program,
This indicate that,
there may be a chance that the oversea program can be continue!!
I will pray hard, so that I have the opportunity to study oversea,
Oyea, can't wait to see what they'll do with RM 700 million!!
I fully support oversea program!!!

Wednesday ~~ Morning ~~ Echoes of the Little Angel

5.30 am....
I wake up earlier than usual...
Sitting on my bed,
I lean myself against the wall,
Leg folded,
Hand rested on my leg,
My headset on,
Hearing to the soothing melody,
Of Libera songs - Angel Voices

I'm feeling wonderful this moment,
I do not know what will happen next,
The next thing I see,
Is that slowly,
My vision become blurry,
I enter into a world of darkness,
A world of nothingness,
I can see nothing, nor feel anything,
Only "Angel Voices" echoes in my mind~~

Out if nothingness,
I can feel splashes of water on my leg,
And the sound of the waves,
The sound of seagulls,
And the sound of nature,
the sound of leaves been blown,
I'm feeling warm,
Slowly, darkness began to disappear,
Light began to breakthrough darkness
Once again, " Angel Voices " echoes in my mind~~

Light then began to fade,
Out of nothingness,
I saw a clear blue sky,
With the seagulls flying around,
And the sun so bright nearly blinded me,
I feel sands on my hand,
which is resting on the ground,
I grab a pile of sand,
and the sand slowly drop,
little by little,
until nothing is left,
" Angel Voices " echoes the scene~~

Sitting straight up,
I saw the sea,
That large area of clear blue water,
the water wave move slowly,
touching my feet from time to time,
And I saw nothing beyond the sea,
it's calm, it's beautiful,
only the white cloud are visible,
filling the almost nothing area beyond the sea,
no island, no nothing
But I heard it,
The " Angel Voices " echoes once again~~

Fear do I not, scare I don't feel,
It is as though I've been here before,
This familiar but unknown places,
That seems forever exist somewhere,
within me,
within this little soul of mine,
The coconut tree by the side wave their leaves,
as though they are welcoming me back,
to somewhere I know but I do not know
I stand on my feet,
I continue to look high up into the sky,
And there, " Angel Voices " echoes again~~

My body began to move along the large area of sands,
The path seems never end,
No pain, no sadness,
Only smile accompany me,
I do not know anything,
It is as though there's no more worry,
Everything seems so wonderful,
Tiredness I do not feel,
Only the heart to keep on moving,
Is there with me,
I only want to keep going,
this endless path
The soothing " Angels Voices " echoes again~~

A warm feeling suddenly envelop me,
A warm hand, holding me tightly,
Her short hair, and white robe,
That looks so familiar
The angels that echoes her voice in me,
Stood by my side,
walking this endless path with me,
I can't see her face clearly,
it is as though her face is cover with extreme brightness,
but I know,
she's smiling to me,
I do not fear,
This endless path I continue to walk,
with her holding my hand,
we began to run along the path short after,
the happiness is endless,
As I hear no more " Angel Voices " echoes anymore~~

Running along the endless path,
of sand and of sea,
of infinite happiness and empty sadness,
she comes to a halt,
she gave me a hug,
so warm, so great,
I shed the tears of happiness,
slowly she started to walk,
my leg is halt, not wanting to move,
slowly, our hand separate from each other,
and the feeling of warmness appears no more,
I stood there watching her,
watching my little angel,
disappearing slowly,
she vanish, like a dust,
and it's then I can hear no more,
The " Angel Voices " that echoes in me,
but somewhere in me,
It keep on smiling,
Feeling the bliss in it,
I know it's time to return,
To where I belong~~

Once again, I enter into a total darkness,
The next think I heard,
It's not the echoes of the " Angel Voices "
is my alarm clock,
which keep on ringing,
signaling it's already 6.00 A.M. in the morning,
I wonder, is this a dream?
I surely want to visit the place again one day,
such a soothing place,
where the " Angel Voices " echoes her sound to me~~


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