300 DAY!!!

65 days left~~

It's been a long way

So many things happened

Nothing is within our expectation

It's all just

So fast

In a blink of an eye 

300 days had passed

Walking down the places we've been through

I know deep inside that

I miss you so~~

There's nothing I can promise you

There's nothing I can give you in return

For everything you've sacrifice for me

It's too much

Your heart

Your soul

Whisper to the very end of my soul

Everything you did for me

I will carve it deep within me

Because there's no other like you

No one like you

You embrace my deepest wound

Healing it with your love

You hurt me sometime

So that I'll become stronger

You try to instill me with greenness

So that I'll love you more

You never forsake me

You stay by my side

And that's the very thing I want

The most precious gift

That I will cherish forever

You're my angel

My 小天使

My little princess

My 小公主

My sleepyhead

My little piggy

My 小猪猪

My 小傻瓜

My little apple

My darling~~

Our eyes were separated far

But our heart knows no boundary

Everyday your eyes shimmer in me

Your voice soothe my soul

Your care lift me up

Your singing bring me deep to rest

I know

And I know

There's so many things I can't do for you

I'm unable to be at your side

When you're feeling unwell

When you're feeling down

When you're crying for care

When you're wandering around

When you need me by your side

Cellphone is our only option

Accompany you by the cellphone

I realize I can do only that much

But one thing I'm very certain

Is that I will always love you

I remember everything we've been through

The memory of a short togetherness

I remember

I remember

Although it's just for a while

But I'm satisfy

And so I miss you so much

For one day 

One day I'm sure

We'll be able to be together again

Because I trust you

Darling

For stay by my side

Always

You stay even though I make you sad

There's so many thing you've sacrifice for me

And your sacrifice will not be in vain

For I will always remember

I will always cherish

A girl like you

There's no other like you

Because you are you

The you I love

Be it

I've chosen you

I will not regret

Because I've taken the other path

I've forsaken the road that seems to be safe

To pursue your love

I will not be able to love you alone

Only through the hand

That holds the glass

Should the brick be break

The brick, a sinister power that destroy us

And the love that is as fragile as a glass

That is easily break by the brick

Will be protected

Be strengthen

By the hand of The Almighty Father

The Alpha of Love

It's you

I know it's you

Thank you

As I gaze up the blue sky

I can see a wide smile

Is that you?

Are you ok?

Is everything fine?

Feeling good?

How's your life?

Fun?

Sad?

Nah... you're always happy

Because you're more than sadness

You're happiness itself

In my heart

Your beauty are of no equal

Your kindness meets no boundary

Your love is limitless

The luckiest guy on earth?

That should be me ^o^

Because I have you

To love~~ 

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

Oh~~ life~~ enough~~ suffer

As I was flipping and reading through Psalms 1~22,
My tears began to roll slowly down my cheek
I was wondering what I've been doing all this time
Not enough
It's still not enough
There's more to it
There's more
Absolutely more
The sudden depression is so much
That I couldn't control it
I thought life would just go on smoothly
Everything I ever wanted
But it's not
It's hard
When I wanna keep out of sadness,
Of depression, of anger
It came by itself
Trying to seek the negative me out
Oh Father who dwells in heaven,
In your hand shall my soul be rest
Heal my wound
Lighten my heart
Lift my soul
From the bribery this world offer
From all the thing that keep You and me apart
And use me
Use me
From today on
Heal me now
I can't stop the tear,
Father,
I shall hide from everyone,
but not from you,
You know the cause of the tear
And You are the only one capable of healing me
Father,
Free my soul
Let it roams the sky
Freely
Tearlessly
Stop my tear now,
stop it

Gundam~~

Gundam had been one of my favourite anime of all time :-D
I had watch through a series of Gundam ranging from
the original Gundam to Gundam 00
What I like Gundam the most is their use of mecha and their story plot
Which revolve around war cause by human themselves out of jealousy
Every series of Gundam is set in a different century or universe
Their use of technology is what really make this anime so interesting
Fossil fuels, nuclear energy and solar energy,
just to name a few are the few resources use as the power supply of Gundam
Their unique fighting style using beam rifle and beam saber are unique in itself

One of favourite Gundam is Gundam 00 which is published in the year 2007
Their use of the GN drive or solar energy make this Gundam series quite a sight
Below is my favourite Gundam of all time, the Gundam 00 Quanta

It has a special ability call the Quantum Burst system
Which emit a large amount of GN particle
which serve as some kind of power like telepathy
Which help human to understand each other
Because we can read others mind :-D
Wouldn't it be nice if I have this power?

And here goes my 2nd favourite Gundam
The 00 Raiser

My 2nd favourite Gundam anime will be Gundam Seed/Seed Destiny

Well, this Gundam universe utilize fossil fuel and nuclear energy as the Gundam main power supply

And it's one of the Gundam the I'm most interested in

Because of it's amazing storyline and unique Gundam design

And here goes my 3rd favourite Gundam, Strike Freedom

It's 8 wing like backpack and it's multi firing ability is superb,

plus its pilot, Kira Yamato who possess the Seed ability

Whoohoohoohoo~~~

Move on to the 3rd of my most favourite Gundam will be Gundam Wing

What really catches my eyes is Gundam Wing Zero/Endless Waltz with its Angelic Wing

Gundam Wing Zero will be my 4th favourite Gundam

It's special weapon the Buster Rifle is also super amazing >.<

Well, there are so many Gundam anime,

such as Gundam ZZ, God Gundam, Gundam V, Gundam 0079,0080 and 0081, Gundam Unicorn

And this anime can at it's best

Teach people of the dangerous

And the risk we human carry if we still continue to differentiate one from another

Ranging from skin colour to races

If we human continue to create a barrier to separate ourselves and render ourselves different from each other, then prepare for another war,

make a change now :-D

Oh yeah, and my 5th favourite Gundam,

not so powerful how I look at it,

but it's the 1st ever Gundam ever created,

The RX-78 Gundam

So friend, why not start to watch Gundam today?

The Flight

My heavy steps stops

At the sight of the almost invisible glasses

I stood there

Luggage in my arm

As I saw people coming in out

Of the almost invisible glasses

That open and close by itself

And I stare at you

Your expression that kept me wondering

If this is the place we’re supposed to be

Because you’re neither happy nor merry

Your eyes a little tear

Your smile a little heavy

Your mood a little moody

We don’t want to be here

But it’s all part of life

It’s all part of HIS plan

I know you’re sad

I know how you feel

But what can I do

Than to just simply whipping your tears

I hold my tears

Just to lessen your tears a little

But deep inside the tear is there

An unpleasant sensation

That I’ll have to fight

For your happiness

Is at the moment, mine

With an unwilling heart

We start to walk

Stop at the almost invisible glass door

It opens itself

As though it’s inviting us to go in

This very door

They will within a few moments, split us

And I hear the call to check-in

My heart pumps a little heavier

As though I don’t want this to happen

I pull a trolley

For your luggage to rest

And I pull it for you

To the check-in counter

You’re worry of your luggage

Of the cookies inside

Your drinks in aluminum can

Whether they’ll be spoilt

Whether the sensor will let you pass

So you make a double check

Just to ensure everything’s safe

After completed your check in

We rest for a while

Find a place to sit

And there I stare at you again

Such gorgeousness and such beauty

In my heart which will always stays at top

Just how torturing

It’s time to get into the departure gate

I know the time is near

And from here we’ll have to split

My tear is trying to break free

But I insist on holding it

Just so that you may leave without worry

And here we are, outside the departure gate

My heart is sinking

I stare into your eye

For this will be the last time

I’m able to stare those beautiful eyes

For a gap of five months

I know for sure

It’ll not be easy

And there you go

I hug you tightly in my arm

A tear you’re unable to see

Drop down this instance

For my heart hurts so much

I know I’m gonna miss you

Miss you so much

I saw you walk in slowly

Passing the sensor gate

Into the departure hall

You turn back

And you smile at me

I turn around

And with tear in my eyes I walk away

And there I was

Outside the airport

Fifty minutes I wait

And I watch your airplane reverse

Position itself on the lane

Accelerates

And in a blink of an eye, gone

When I look at the plane

The wind cause by the plane sweep through my face

And my little tears away

I cry, I recall those moments we’re together

But I’m happy

Because I know someday

We’ll meet again

Perfect Two

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause your the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause you are the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya

I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

To the one I love,

I dedicated this song

Although we'll never be perfect

But you're the perfect girl for me

And I hope I'm the perfect guy for you

Until then, we're the perfect two

I'm back :-D

2 weeks pause from blogging

And now I'm back

Muahahahahaha

But things are getting seriously pack lately

Exam is up ahead

Santubong one day recreational sports is near

Hahahahaha

This is life

Enjoy, stress

But I like it

:-)

God is with me,

what can be against me

So muahahaha,

Good day!!!

What can I do? equality?

It's life

It's all about life

How you live it

How you view it

Life is never easy

Nor is it ever hard

See the world from another point

Turn around

Take a breath and you may see

Things you'd never see before

Obstacles are things

One can never avoid

However obstacles are things

One can get over with

It's up to us right?

It's always is

Without the power and the courage

To face obstacles up ahead

We are as good as waiting to be thrash

Just how one can view life?

It vary with each and everyone of us

Perhaps it's meant to be that way

We are of no complain

For who we are

Where we are born

How do we look

Our family background

Our health

Our wealth

Our parents

I'm one of those who believe in equality

Although this goal may seems far

But one day I'm sure

This world can be united as one

Everyone is the same

Of course we can't destroy our own belief and culture

However,

That's the one thing that will make things worth to be done

Human from all around the globe

Of totally different race

Of a variety of language

Of different skin color

We'll stand together

And that's why I dream of becoming an educator

Since I was just a mere little kid

The dreams never parted from me

And now

Taking one step closer to my dreams

I know God has His plan in me

This world

I will change

Bias shall rule no more

With God and education by my side

Even if it's just a little

This dreams must be carry on

A world where everyone is one

Everyone is the same

Equality that will never vanish

Gender bias, racism, discrimination, 

violation of human right,

everything must be destroy

How am I going to achieve this is still a question mark

But I know,

Becoming an educator will certainly

Bring everything a step closer

For now,

I will just pray

And work the best I can

To become a great educator

For one day

I shall have my own student

A generation that will inherit my will

A generation that can continue my job

My dear darling~~

I would rather be somewhere alone with you
Instead of praying you're feeling like I do.
I'd rather be staring into the depths of your eyes
Searching, exploring, knowing, loving ...
My secret, I have decided to disclose to you.
I've never seen you, never met you, never heard
Or smelled, or touched you, never known
But truth be told,
I'm deeply, truly, madly in love with you.
Just because I know that you're in love with me too
And the nights I am secretly needing you
You're longing for me too.
To many, my tears seem insignificant
They're meaningful to you.
Someday our winding paths will meet
And I'll just know, I've found you.
Till that day, we'll have to wait
Because when we find each other
And the depths of hearts are revealed
Our love will be eternal
Worth every tearful moment that we've waited.
Though we are apart for yet another night
Our moment is a day nearer.

Returning Sunday~~

Back from holiday

This year Lunar New Year is quite a boring one

No expectation and no mood

Maybe it's because of having holiday for only one week

And everyone has to go back on the 3rd or 4th day of Lunar New Year

Well, this year marks a remarkable growth in myself

Although I can grow more

Many new experience

Sweet and bitter

Everything is just so awesome

Freakin awesome

Yeah, I wish I can say that

Looks like this world is out of my expectation

Not everything is as expected

It pains me when I have to think like this

But oh well,

What can I do

The only best option I have is to hand everything to God

Pray that God will always be by my side

When everyone else is gone

When everyone is not there

I can still have my Father by my side

sigh....

reaching adulthood

is much much more complicated than what I know

Is time to change again

It's fine if we try to change ourselves a little once in a while

I know which aspect to change

But I hope this small change will not bring harm to any

Hopefully hehe~~

Watch the airplane fly yesterday

Not a very good feeling to describe

Perhaps~~

The small gap won't be able to heal itself

for sometime...

because... ( sorry, i try not to have tear while recalling yesterday )

there's no doubt this time

this is the feeling it's meant to be

I turn around

The wind of the airplane blow through my hair

And my tears away

It's time to say goodbye

We'll meet again

:-)